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My mind is in so many places, no amounts of lists can save me now.  Thanksgiving is literally 2 days away and I still need to go to the grocery store and get everything I need, blah.  I’m of course doing bacon wrapped chestnuts, texas caviar (not really caviar), and hopefully I can find some old bananas to whip up some bread.  I lovveeee it though so I’ll shut up.  Today I’ve been doing good I hope you are too.  Our house is filled with the smell of the new xmas tree I wish I had year ’round.   Sammie is coming home this weekend and we are going to decorate~~like we always do.

I’m visiting Nashville next week with work and can’t freakin’ wait.

Real quick, I saw Jade yesterday and she’s beautiful and I wish I could keep her in my pocket forever.






sometimes i like it here.













-last one from iphone

a sweet time with my main girls in chicago.  i always leave feeling like i need to see more and eat more and dance more.

now i’m eating cereal with matt and bunny and watching tv- just where i wanna be.

life right now









Slowly but surely, Matt and I are settling into our home.  We’ve decided to paint the living room and dining room from this crummy beige color thank god.  I can’t wait to show once it’s all done.   You will be the first to see.

Going on a girls road trip to visit Sammie in Chicago.  I’m so excited I feel like my head will explode.  I want to eat, dance, talk, and dance more with my 4 of my best ladies -minus sarah and bunny ; ( .  Ahhhh!

Today is Amber’s birthday..24….meow….I love you so much m’lady

First Birthday

How far back do you remember your birthday parties?  I remember helping clean the house and dancing to music with my mom, taking cereal breaks, laying of the floor, last minute grocery shopping, then party time with my family and friends.  My favorite things to watch are home movies of our birthday parties.  It’s fun watching yourself as a small human and doing cute/camera shy things.  If there’s one thing I do when I have kids is defiantly making home videos.  It makes my heart feel light when I get to look back and watch mine.  I hold onto these memories dearly.

Jade turned 1 this month.  She is so big and very sensitive but let me feed her some noodles and gave me a few smiles.  My dad had the family over for a cook out to celebrate her birthday.  It makes me sad that I haven’t been a part of my niece and nephews life.  Our family is very far from conventional and doing things “in the proper order”.  I wouldn’t change any one for the world but wish the distance wasn’t in between us so much.

Jade is moving four hours away in a few weeks and my heart hurts.

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